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DANCE
the vertical expression of a horizontal desire legalized by music
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Dancer yyk NHDS♥; 18051995; yyk_1995@hotmail.com People
Yanying SiewBoon Karmun Sherrry Pamela Nicholas Evelyn Sining Amanda Jingwen Jinglin Kelly Kityarn Michelle Nicolette Sixiu Xuanlin Yanting Yingpei Yingying Yuwen Yvonne Zoe Alfreda Chanhong Gindelin Huiping Joanna Leila Natalie Xuejing Xuening Charlene Justina Noreen DONT CLICK HERE! Credits Designer: Anonymous Pictures: istockphoto |
Monday, October 27, 2008, 9:22 AM
13th October, MondayThis entry is gonna be about the raving unfairness in my life (well, sorta) MY FATHER IS A MOTHERFUCKING BASTARDBITCHASSHOLE@#$ %^&*() ANDALLTHEOTHERBADWORDSINTHISWORLD. I mean, what’s wrong with him? Stupid fucking loser. His screws got extremely LOSE man. Why must there always be a fight, quarrel? Some people just DON’T KNOW HOW TO THINK. That’s sad. Actually, right now I’m extremely pissed off. All I want to do now is lash out at him; actually I might actually fancy seeing his face flattened on the fucking floor. I feel like bashing him up. I will feel like bashing anyone who makes my mum sad (I know I love my mum to bits)…J That sexist (dun think too much, check up the dic) just cant keep himself from blaming WOMEN for everything that goes wrong, even if it’s OBVIOUSLY HIS fault… (Some) fathers nowadays cannot be considered fathers AT ALL. They… aw, I don’t know what to say… just have absolutely no brain. anw, I can never believe how women can just love their husbands so much that even when they beat them up, they just pretend nothing happened and even try to caver up for them. Are they dumb or what??? Hmm... Love must be REALLY blind. Omfg, I wouldn’t do that to protect my partner like that. I mean he’s hurting you, not like any other kind of petty crime or that he murdered your enemy or something. How BLIND AND DUMB CAN THEY GET? I am freaking pissed and mad at how dumb some women are and how men are allowed to rule over women. THIS IS DOWNRIGHT GENDER BIASNESS!!! When I grow up, I shall never fall into such dumb traps that these cunning men set for us women, in wait of a perfect prey to walk innocently right smack in the middle of a world of fear and betrayal, and get so scared they just cannot run away. Are men that overpowering? Never mind, I shall overpower men one day, I swear. And I will bring a stop to this kind of evil. What makes this evil deed so evil is that it happens behind closed doors, and nobody knows and nobody can help and the poor, poor victim has to suffer in silence. I hate evil that makes people suffer in silence; I had enough of all the da4 nan2 ren2 crap. That I just plain old dumb thinking that shouldn’t even have been thought of. I’ll bet that the person who thought of this dumb thing must have been the ‘da nan ren’ himself, and he couldn’t bear the thought of letting his family ever have a say in anything; he was so jealous, blahblah… get what I mean? And one thing I hate more is that society, this society that we live in, seems to accept the fact that men rule women. Didn’t god or whatever you believe in make us all equal? Just look at it: fairy tales about a prince kissing a princess and breaking the spell (a,k,a saving her life) already shows that women are supposed to be dependant on men. Who said that? I mean, snogging and sex for some people might be fun and ____, but it doesn’t mean that guys HAVE TO rule over girls, does it? It is be perfect sense to love yourself more that the guy, and be aware of what’s happening and don’t just become hypnotized by a guy. Come on, it isn’t, and will never be sense to do such a dumb thing. It isn’t, and will never be, worth it. So there. Well, at least, it doesn’t make sense to me, but for those poor girls hopelessly in love, good luck then (not that I’m saying every guy is mean. I’ll leave you all to think about that… Meanwhile, a piece of good news: I managed to avoid ___ throughout the entire dance practice, and all the way home too!!! *dances around happily* J J J I want to go en Pointe!! 14th October, Tuesday I hate this. I’m frigging bored man, bored out of my life. What the hell is there to do when the exams are over and nobody is free to go out and you don’t have internet access and… oh $%^ this is getting sooooooooooo frustrating!!! There’s dance tomorrow, at least, can’t wait. 15th October,Wednesday Dance. Omfg, it has been eons since I saw Mr Low. And it doesn’t help that I’ve lost all my stamina during the eoys… now I can’t dance ndp without panting like a crazy after that. It’s unbelievable how much one can rot in a month. So the moral of today: DON’T SLACK!! (Whatever) Anyway, there’s school tomorrow. Sigh. The results will be out tomorrow and Friday. Screw eoys. This sucks. Posting my results ASAP. I know you will want to see it (competitive people) Haha don’t be jealous (as if you will get a chance though, I think my results will be screwed way big time) and I just found out that there will be endless dance practices during the holidays (not that I don’t like it, will actually keep me from rotting at home) Everyday 9-5 (Haha working hours). Loads of perfs coming up, that’s why. Let’s see… cultural pot, open house, cca extravaganza, syf, Asian youth something… wahahas. Oh well, never mind, I’ll be fit and strong (‘sif) after the holidays. Dance dance dance… I sure hope I can manage a split after all these :( bleh. Meanwhile, I shall most probably have to skip my uncle’s chalet L. Anyway, the most pressing issue is the eoys. Results result!! Can’t wait. Good luck then! 16th October, Thursday Aha!! Results, results… aaaaaaaaaaooooooooooooooiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee… Umm… let’s see… El: paper1 – 40/60L; paper2 – 38.5/50 Cl: ? Hist: 77/100 J Geog: 74/100 ONE FRIGGIN MARKMath: ? Bio: ? Physics: 17/20J Chem: 24/30 J Art: 69/100 ONE FRIGGIN’ MARK Lit: 43/50 J Kkaes. Will get back moreee tomorrow… 21st October, Tuesday Oh gosh, people, I’m so so so sorry… haven’t been here to blog in about a million years. Let’s see… where did I let off? Oh yeah. RESULTSSSS. Aha! Cl: 66/100 Math: 69/100 (the dumbass math teacher cannot even spare 1 frigging mark?!?!) Bio: 41.5/50 (yes I know, I’m damn happy with my science results, lalala) Mmhmm… I hate the internet. I hate it I hate it I hate it!!! Freak man, don’t blame me when my blog is DEAD, because howthehelldoyoupostwhenthereisnointernetsigns??? Anw, I have been verryyy busy lately with dance and books. I swear cultural pot. and open house and next year’s AYOG and SYF and all the endless perfs just means endless dance practices. Not that I don’t like them of course. Hahas. And I can also swear that I have been reading about a million books since I knew that lot 1 library is moving-to 4th floor. Aw… closing of the library during the hols. What a pity. I’ll miss the library very very muchL oh and come to thin of it, I read 2-3 books in a day. Amazing *waves the huge film star wave* but true. : DDD ahahahahas. Oh yeah, before I forget, DON’T MY RESULTS ROCK?!?! (Fine, I know they don’t, but don’t go spoiling my fun now) Meanwhile, despite all the frenzy about nothing, I’m getting my fair share of boredom and nothingness during this post eoys period. Because I know, I’m gonna miss this freedom very much. Gotta run now… byeee 22nd October, Wednesday FBTFBTFBTFBTFBTxzxzxzxzxz!!!!! Sweets!!! Arghhh. Dance is cancelled tomorrow. Surprisingly, I don’t really care… weird sometimes. Some random stuff in my head now: -“the fuckup formally known as my father” -“free spirit to lost soul is a very fine line” -“cancer is life changing – you might go deaf” -“it isn’t the end of the world yet… but when will it end?” -“you never will know everything” -“there will always be something in life that will not go right” 24th October, Tuesday Some people just wanna have it all… all the good things; they just want it for themselves. Yadayadayada… some people just want to have all the say, yet you’ll be surprised at haw hypocritical they can be. Some people give lame excuses and get away with it. Amazing. Nothing in this fucking world is one sided. Just you have to understand this and all will work out, eventually. Eventually. Anyway, it’s the holidays, at long last. Humph. Finally. Been looking to this day since day 1 of school. Aye, now that it’s finally here, I don’t see the utter goodness of this, this holiday at all. I’ve read about a million books already, and books are getting less and less appealing. Been so long since I have been able to post my blog up, I just keep writing on Microsoft word, and now my posts are 5 pages looong. (Forgive me) Hmm, been reading about lots of anorexic people in books lately, along with loads of detailed love making stuff which can turn anyone on. Hahas. Maybe I’ve become a sicko like the rest of the boys I my class. Aye, what has become of me? Just finished ‘rite of spring’. I want to try how is it like not to eat and become anorexic. Somehow I find it fun, and a little exciting. Alright, blame whatever nonsensical thoughts on my too boring life. But whatever, I am really bored. And my father says that chatting on msn is not right, blahblah, unhealthy socializing, yadayadayada, sitting in front of the comp doing nothing. WTF. And he said I have no friends, when I do. Obviously I do. He’s the motherfucking loser who doesn’t have any friends and have to come find trouble with me and make me cry. Seriously, what kind of a father is this?!?! And when I go out with friends, he claims I don’t do any housework. Then when I stay home, someone keeps saying that I don’t have any fucking friends. FUCK THAT HYPOCRITE!!! WHY CAN’T THAT FUCKING LOSER GET OUTTA MY SIGHT?? EVERYTHING I DO IS FUCKING WRONG, WRONG, AND WRONG. And believe it or not, he doesn’t subscribe to the internet because he claims it’s a waste of money. Yet, that same fucking loser can go out and buy a fucking ipod for $924 for his own fucking selfish self. God, I hate him. He is a self centered fucking bastard. I thought fathers were men willing to do anything for their children, well at least in every father except mine. Mine father would probably just go all out bent on seeing his daughter’s future, career, and everything destroyed, considering the countless times he said to me: “you have no friends, blah blah, you are so unsociable, you are a bloody idiot, you are…” ok you get it. And of course none of them is true. The unsociable asshole is him. Arghhh!@#$%^&*( I’m so fed up I’m in no mood to do anything anymore. Bye (and I hope I’ll be in a better mood tomorrow, because I don’t wanna write so many f-words) 25th October, Saturday Aye, here I am again. Still no signs of internet connection anytime soon though I hope one would appear soon. I’m tired of waiting, and when I get to post my blog, I’ll be so long. Meanwhile, I still hate my frigging dad for being so incredibly selfish. Sigh. Sometimes we just have to live with things we don’t want. That’s life (I learnt that all from books). I might try experiencing the life of anorexics for about a week. Just to experience what it is like to not eat. At the same time, I can lose weight!! Kill two birds in a stone, how nice. Don’t worry though, I most probably won’t become one. If I get addicted to that life, however, that’s a different story altogether… I’m kinda getting bored of this holiday life, and it’s only the 2nd day. Oh well, I shan’t complain, cause anyone will agree that holidays are better than school. Looking back now, I can’t imagine loving secondary school as much as ytps. Back then I hated holidays and love school to bits, and I still love it. Hard to imagine, but amazingly true. Hahas. I don’t know what to blog anymore. Oh, I forgot. I got 6th in class. Idk. I must get top 5 in class next year. Byeexzxzxxz. |